I know I've been gone a long time, but I'm back and I want what is mine ...

Don't fuck with me,

don't fuck with me 

since you shipped my ass off to sea

I never knew where I was going,

I went where the water was flowing

I know I've been gone a long time but

I'm back and I want what is mine 

I know i've been gone a long time but

I'm back and I want what is mine

The ship was the love of my life 

we went down together that night 

I surfaced and married a shell

and for years I just cruised on the line

I know I've been gone a long time but

I'm back and I want what is mine 

I know I've been gone a long time but

I'm back and I want what is mine 

so don't try and fuck me about 

the worst thing that happened was 

I was standing too close to your heart 

I'm tired and bout to wake up

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmania.com/btstu_lyrics_jai_paul.html

All about Jai Paul: http://www.musictory.com/music/Jai+Paul

I had to put this song on my blog. It is just so fucking amazing! Listen to it! 

Otherwise I wanted to talk about "hypocrites". I might be one, since I am talking about them ... 

Nahh, It's just that I kind of realized that I am a hypocrite sometimes, especially when it comes to talking about other people. So I have never invited this person to a party of mine (because I didn't think he would want to come and he would be talking about how boring it is). And I've done some pretty bad stuff when I was at his first party, but I don't do that kinda shit no more. I just don't understand why he can't get over himself and invite me. See, right there! I'm being a hypocrite! 

I hate it when there is girls who are like "Oh My God! I would so never wear that!" And then the next day they're like "wooooops! What am I wearing" hahaha. They are such little twats. Never mind about that. I must be boring. See, I thought I could write such awesome blogs, but they are just about me complaining and talking about shit that everyone knows about. I have a close friend of mine, he writes the best shit ever! I read it 24/7! I won't say names though. 

I hope you enjoy the song, if anyone is reading this!

Inspiration is a hard thing to find ...

Random

I went shooting, and it felt so good :)

My very good friend <3

Duckkkkfaceeee <3

HER EYES ARE AMAZING!

I can honestly say tihs, best friends for ever <3 (I don't want to sound cheesy) 

My art project about music 

Time is running out

Your parents are not going to be here for ever. Your friends are more likely to live longer than your mother. At the same time you spend more time with your friends. In a couple years when you finish high school, you will go off to University. You will live in a new community, without your parents. Make the best of it with them now. Don't only think about parties, and spending time with your friends ... think about how much it's going to hurt you when you are older. Looking over your past, and telling yourself "I could've done better". Don't regret anything, especially don't regret not saying goodbye to your loving ones. If you have a chance to, do it. 

I love my mum and dad very much, and I know they want the best for me. I want the best for them too. 

x

You don't understand ...

I admire people. 

Sometimes they don't understand something, because they don't want to understand it. I would think that a person would be happy to hear that someone cares about them, but they just don't know in what way.

I wish it could be like in the movies, I could touch someones hand, and they could feel the pain in my chest. I use to be so sad, every single day. I use to cry. I use to like being upset for some reason. And even now, when I am sad it feels so good. It feels like all my emotions come pouring out of me. 

Usually when I tell someone something, words aren't just empty words. I really mean something. It's like saying "I love you", when you actually meant "I like you". When I say "I love you" I actually mean it from the bottom of my heart. 

I just hate admitting to myself that there is something called "reality". I hate admitting to myself what I really truly feel about people and other things. 

I just got really upset over this thing right now, and i just needed to write about something. I know I haven't updated this blog for ages, but there it is. My bull shit story ... 

Motion to extend THIMUN

This year I went to THIMUN.

THIMUN stands for "The Hague International Model United Nations". It is an academic simulation of the United Nations that aims to educate participants about current events, topics in international relations, diplomacy and the United Nations agenda (copy pasted from Wiki).

I met loads of nice people, especially at parties (clubs) that I attended. Madness was pretty lovely, really crowded and everyone was sucking on each others faces (that wasn't that amazing).

I represented "The Maldives". And gave a short speech on the resolution of raising sea levels and climatic change, since the Maldives has a very big part in the topic.

If you guys are interested in debating, and if your school attends that kinds of events, you should totally go! I promise you, you will have a lot of fun. 

And if you do attend this, it will help you with your collage application.

SPREAD THE WORD TO THE WORLD! GO TO MUN's AND HAVE FUN!

Love you people!

Read some more soon!

-Trina 

❤